Canada's Wonderland: new Friends, great fun and a tummy ache all in one!!

So My job had an employee day at Canada's Wonderland! It was so much fun. First of all I hate trying to find parking. I dont have the patience or the temperment to do it so I'd much rather park far then try to battle it out for a spot! We get there and my bf spots the ticket gate for our employees to pick up their tickets. I spot a friend, A, from work so I run to her and my bf makes a beeline for the ticket booth. Turns out she just got there with her niece and friend M and asks me to tag along. Cool. Her friend is gorgeous and has the biggest coolest afro I've personally seen in my life. She is a really chill girl and all 4 of us (bf included) proceed to the bunjee jump to risk our lives for $15.00. YAY! Not so yay for me as I screamed for my life cuz I thought I was gonna die on the bottom of the jump but whatever right LOL.It was so much fun. My bf knows how I feel about not having friends so as we are all walking he is leaning into my ear encouraging me to keep up and join in on their convo. So I do and I am glad I did. Turns out M is a really cool girl and we have alot in common including our hair. My afro is not as nig (not by far) but I have a desire to get it as big as hers and she has a desire to help me LOL. I cant wait. Not only that but she likes doing crazy out of the ordinary non typical black people kinds of things like snow boarding, chilling at the cabin, bunjee jumping, sky diving, swimming and of course skating. I have been trying for 3 years to get someone to go skating with me. Instead I'm met with the, "black people dont skate" garbage. I'm stoked She is going to st, vincent wednesday and wants to go to the beach with us and the rest of our friends when she gets back. Its cool. She is also into make up and doing eye shadows and things that not alot of other black girls are into. LOL Its great! I'm really excited to meet someone as chill and cool as her and also to strengthen an existing friendship with A.

Its great. I really, really cant wait till she gets back. Its going to be so much fun!

By the end of the night my tummy hurt from all the crap I had eaten(free food at the BBQ what can I say, nothing beats free right??). M had to leave around 7 to go to work so it left A, my bf and I to roam around CW and do some more fun shit.My bf paid for us to go go karting (I have never done it before) andfor the 32 oz slushie drinks thats started my tummy ache. He told me he did it so that we could have fun memories of the day we all went to CW and became friends. Thanks baby! You are the best!!

Here's some pix of my crazy adventures

(isnt M's afro amazing!!!!!!)

(me in the middle screaming for my life)

(thats my bf and my friend on Top Gun...at this point the slushie in my tummy mixed with that nasty veggie hot dog, some chicken and salads had me on the bench-but damn that slushie was good LOL)

Speaking of, he knows how down I have been about alot of things so he surprised me with a beautiful card and in it he wrote:

"You mean the world to me. You are the most beautiful woman I know and I cant imatgine my life without you. I love you dearly. We both have no idea what our future holds but what I know is that we will see it through together good or bad."

I almost cried! To top it off (like it could get better than that) he bought me a MAC gift card for a 1 hour make up consultation so I can learn new techniques one on one with a MAC MU artist!! I Love MAC and make up; he knows me so well! Its so perfect for me. But can I tell you a secret?? Lean in ok....ready??

I love the actual card even more than I do the consulation card. I really, really do!

Love you F!!!

Till we talk again!!

Hugs!!

Old Friends lost, reunited?

This has been one busy, busy weekend. I have only really missed posting once. Sorry about that. Friday was a busy day. Work was chaotic to say the least. The location that I work from was previously all men so here I come along a female to the testosterone mix. To day that they are crass and rude is an understatement. Not only are they like that with each other but they feel no reason not to do so with me. Even though I have mentioned that I dont like it and its rude. They dont care. This is why I really want to get the hell out of there. The manager swore at me over something innocent as I was walking out the door and right then and there it was a wrap for me. When I came back in I was ready to go home. I went to the bathrrom stayed there for a minute came back and sat there till 6 pm then left shortly after. What really pissed me off was the main rude one's wife came in and I thought to myself, if she came home and told him that her male co workers talked to her the way he talked to me he would lose it. But what goes around comes around.

On a lighter note I went to shoppers on my lunch to pick up a few things that I was in desperate need of when I saw a familiar face. A friend of mine from high school and I stopped talking over some trivial nonsense that got blown way out of proportion. She and I were really good friends and I really felt like I could be myself with her. I saw her mom and was chatting her up when suddenly she cam around the corner. She seemed genuinely happy to see me and told me we should hook up. She suggested I contact her on facebook and I will; baby steps.... Its been a long time and time heals all wounds so I'll cautiously see where this goes. When we spoke it was like we never skipped a beat. Thats a good sign...

Till we speak again

Kisses!

Strength in the numbers of Me, Myself and I

I think things happen for a reason. I dont think anything happens by accident at all.

Over the past few years my circle of freinds has dwindled to a handful. Reasons vary from new boyfriends and all of a sudden I find myself wondering if their telephone number still works to stupid disagreements, new friends or just growing apart. I dont like drama, I think thats one of the reasons I dont have very many frends bc I cant handle the nonsense. The circle that I have now I cant even really call friends bc kids, a marrige, and new friends has neither of us communicating as much as I would like or try to so I sit by myself and sometimes wish I could do cool things like have a cosmopolitan friday out with the girls, go out to a movie night to see sex and the city then have martini's afterwards, go shopping or at least window shopping. Something.

I hate it but thats life right. For the longest time I still had a desire deep down inside to connect with someone and do girly things, have fun and go out. Ifigured it was a secret desire but I dont think I was that good at hiding it as I thought. I think it was still visible and came out in my eyes when I watched girls out shopping, chatting, having a latte in the cafe or just going out to the club and sharing jokes while having fun. Its basic human nature to want to dominate, have one over, be cliquish and manipulate your fellow man. I think my desire (however secret i thought it was) appealed to people who coudlnt resist the urge to view me as weak, treat me badly, look down on me and play stupid games. Well no more.

Two and a half years ago when I gave my asshole ex the heave ho I started thinking about myself and how I could strengthen myself. I stopped waiting on everyone else and I just got up and went after what I wanted. If there was a book I wanted I went and bought it. If I felt like going browsing in the mall I went and did that too. If I wanted bubble tea, a latte, whatever you guessed I went and did it. End of story. Hell I even watched a few movies by myself because none of my "friends" had time to go see it with me. It felt good, I felt empowered and I liked it. My point is, I stopped thinking about the freinds I didnt have and I started thinking about the friend I do have...myself.

What do I want? I'm so tire dof feeling guilty and I am so ready to let that guilt go and be free. I think I need to put myself on a "I'm sorry fast" and throw in "I feel bad", "are you offended", "what do you think" in there as well because frankly I'm sick of it. I'm sick of worrying about what others think or feel about me, my decisions, my life, and my choices. I wory all the time about how I am percieved. There are certain perceptions I care about but I care to much about all of them and its draining. So Today is the frist day of my fasting starting with "I'm sorry".

Today I am no longer sorry!

Till I blog again

Don't call him baby!

I have a good friend that I have known for years. She has seen me through my ups downs and all arounds. She was there for all my "no good" boyfriends and chimed in on each and every one of them. She likes my current boyfriend (she hated the others) in fact she thinks he is a keeper. The other day while having a convo she randomly asks, "so hows my baby?". I go who because I have no children and didnt know who she was talking about. So I ask her who is she talking about. Thats when she answers your boyfriend? I'm like excuse me?? No! You dont get to call him that. He's my boyfriend and only I can call him that. Sorry. She asks why? WHY?!? I just told you heffer! She then laughs it off but I'm pissed off! I cut her off the phone but before I do I tell her dont call my man that ever again. He's mine and therefore she doesnt get to call him that. She agrees to not say it then the convo ends.

WTF?????????????

Please!! Can you believe this girl?? Why would you randomly call someones man your baby?? This is why I keep few female friends and this is why I have trust issues with alot of women.

What do you think?