Everything happens for a reason.
Ther is a time for smiling, a time for laughing, a time for crying and time to hear the truth.
I think that time is now.
I have a fmaily member that likes to talk. Everything that happens they are the first person to pick up the phone and call sister so and so and tell them yet they wont tell the person they are upset with. Then when sunday morning rolls around they act like nothing was said and sister so adn so looks at you with the hmm hmm look.
Typical church drama. I dont like drama yet this person does. They revel in epoepl thinking they are a victim and you are evil. I think they do this because deep down they are evil themselves and want todeflect the attention away from themselves and onto the other person.
As I type this I am thinking how childish this all is.
My point for typing this is this:
I dont like drama anmd I dont like mix up yet I found out today that people whom I nievely trusted at atime when I was most vulnerble and offered themselves as a shoulder to lean on were the same epople who brought my name back.
I think I'm mad at myself more then anything because I was warned but I didnt listen because I didnt want to beleive that the epople who presented themselves as one way were the exact opposte. What gets me is these are the same people who coninuted to smile and now half smile in my face every sunday.
So the question comes well why do you still go to that church. That church always gives warnings about stayingunder the rim of God so that his protection will be upon you and I believed that I was getting that at this church. I went in priased the Lord, read the bible and said hellos and goodbyes not knowing that i was surrounded by people casting a judgmental eye on me because of what this person has said. I think it all makes sense now. The distancing, the weird looks. This person who spread these lies about me did it because everyone looked at me favorably as the girl who has a good head on her shoulders, the girl who is polite and is a good girl and they didnt like it so they worked hard to create scenarios and situations behind the scenes to tarnish that image. So now I walk in thinking everything is ok when in reality it is not. In reality I am slandered before my car is even in park, I am judged and my image is turned upside down the moment they cast eyes on me and this person who did it is now seen as the victim when they are they perpetrator.
This is why I dont like going to Caribbean churches and I dont like being around too many Jamaicans because this is what happens.
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