Its Mine and you can't have it!

The devil always tries to find a way to taint your happiness and steal your joy because he likes seeing you down.

I was feeling soooooooooo good inside this past week. Even when things on the outside made me mad or didnt sit right with me deep down inside I was still feeling my joy and happiness then this weekend happened and challenged my grip on both.

There's a situation that happened a few weeks back and after my bf urged me to talk to this person everything was laid out on the table. Well some of the stuff laid out didnt sit right with me afterwards and I told myself I'm not going to let it steal my joy. It hasnt stolen it but it has made it hard to feel it. I dont think thats fair to me. I'm not going to beat myself up the way I usually do and say, "I should just not let it bother me", because I'm human, its a weird situation and it would bother anyone else. I sat and thought about it and I've decided to take a new approach. I'm gonna pray about it. Now I pray alot but I get discouraged about things especially if I dont see any progress. That doesnt mean things arent changing and moving in the right direction. When I say right it might not be what my heart desires but it is the direction that God wants and in the end works out better than you would have wanted anyway. When you pray about something is essentially what happens.

Letting go and letting God is hard because I like to know whats happening. But God isnt going to come down and say, "This is what my next move is and this is how its going to turn out". So I'm going to pray about that too and continue to move forward. Let God to take care of that situation. Honestly thats all that I can do. I cant make anyone like me and I cant change the way someone feels. So since I cant change anyone else I will work on the one person I can change...and thats myself and how I respond to situations and people.

^^^^My joy!

This blog entry is not meant to be my declaration of instant healing. I am cofident that this too will pass and there will come a day in the very near future that it wont bother me. This blog entry is meant to be a declaration of another step forward; a step toward freedom and retained happiness! I'm determined to do it but this time not on my own. I'm going to try this new approach and I know the results will be better then I will ever expect.

Good night everyone :)