I dont really know what to say here. Maybe I can talk about how tired I am from working 11 hours then going to my bf's brothers graduation (Congrats C!!). Or maybe I can talk about how depressed I have been lately and how much I wish I wasnt so down and sad. Or maybe I can talk about how friendless I've been feeling lately? Or maybe I can talk about how I am looking back at my life wondering where I went wrong and why I am not in the career I want. Its not for lack of trying trust me I have applied to every kind of position in my field without not even as much as a "thanks for applying but we have decided to go with another candidate" letter. I'm in a job a despise that has absolutly nothing to do with what I went to school for. I feel like a loser who is discovering that the last laugh is on me. I wonder why I even tried so hard in school if this is where I would be almost 10 years after graduation. SO I sat and cheered on the 2009 grads feeling happy for them, cheering on those who go into hard university and remembering when I graduated with so much hope and so many dreams... and none of them coming true.
I suppose there is time....yes there is time. My mind tells me but my heart feels defeated and weak. I need to break out of this.....I dont know how. Does anyone have any suggestions because I am having more than a moment ya'll! I dont know
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