Can you call this an epiphany or an awakening?

I sat i nchurch today thinking about someone that is in a lot of trouble. Alot of people are happy about this persons sudden downfall but there are many others who are very upset about it; my mother being one of them. I'm not happy about it either but as we all said a prayer and sang songs of encouragment for this person I couldnt help but remember King David in the bible. King David was well favored with God but lost his favor when he had an affair with another mans wife then had the man killed so he could take his wife as his own. God punished him bysturring trouble in his very household as a result King David suffered alot but even in his suffereing God had mercy on him. He died and was succeded by his son who later became King Soloman; a king who no other king could come close to in glory and beauty.

I believe there is hope for this person. Even as service was done and many women in the church began to weep for the circumstances of this person, the pastor gave me a hug and told me not to worry, just pray and stay strong. I told him I will. Truth is I stopped being sad about 2 days ago. It was affecting me too much. If this person is guilty of the crime he is accused of then he will have to appeal to God and in turn God will have mercy on him and deliver him. If he is innocent then God will still do the same thing. Either way, God is with him and will deliever him out of the hands of his accusers and enemies. SO it got me thinking further.

My mother not liking my bf is beyond my control; why worry when I can pray. Lord knows I dont deserve her treatment and neither does my bf so why wouldnt God redeem us? Its not in my control because as Minister J preached today, "all things work out for the good of those who love the Lord. So if this is true then can we really say anything bad happens if God has already said that everything works out for good?" That was profound for me.

So I wont waste my time worrying that my mother is stubborn about my bf.
I wont worry that he too has given up on her-I understand and I dont blame him for feeling that way
I wont worry about my job-I have to give God the power that he actually has instead of doubting him all the time
I wont worry about anything.

AT least this are the things I will tell myself when things start creeping into my mind asking me my opinion.

I gotta stay positive about things. My life will be so much easier when I do. I sued to be more positive then I started to feel depressed, sad and down and I began losing my will to fight. Giving up is not an option. My mother doesnt like my bf bc of his race and her own stupid reasons. I thin she is manipulative. These things arent changing, but what am I doing to change how I react to them.....????